Hello...Fear....

FEARFUL

"For the thing I greatly feared has come upon me, and what I dreaded has happened to me." -Job 3:25

My greatest concern,

Or should I say the biggest fear to me

Is that one morning You will wake up

And realize I’m not really what I appear to be

In Your mind

I’m the perfect mate

The one who can do no wrong

And the guy You believe to be so great.

It’s so very hard

To live a lie…

On the surface it seems

I’m the perfect guy…

But I know I’m not

I am reminded of my flaws daily

But You can’t see them

Love can make some visions hazy

You can’t understand

For me each day is a chore

Trying to conceal the truth

Or from it, to ignore

I hope and pray

You don’t ever see my reality

Maybe You’ll be shocked if You do

And decide to reject me.

I couldn’t accept that fate

So each day is test

For me to be what I feel I am not

And hope I don’t break down from the stress

I know one day You will wake up

While I am lying there…

And realize that I am really nothing

That is my greatest fear…

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