I'm in awe. I lie in bed tossing and turning. Not from anxiety or nervousness, but from anticipation. In 21 days my life changes monumentally. Not a day goes by where someone asks me am I ready for the big day. My answer is always the same. I'm not concerned about the pomp and circumstance of that day. Truthfully that day is only 20-25% about me anyway. What I am concerned with is the next day and every day thereafter. I'm gearing up to be the provider, protector, lover and friend I know I must be for her. I guess cause I've been down this road before (albeit a much rockier, and darker road) that I'm not worried. It was part of a greater design I believe.
I sometimes sit alone and reflect on the past few years of my life. If someone told me I would be here, where I am, in this moment 4 years ago I wouldn't have believed them. I am so different from the person I was back then. I've changed a lot. Guess you could say I've grown a lot as well. I went down to my lowest point but I climbed back out, stronger, wiser and better. I know I began preparing for 10/18/14 before I even knew what that day would mean for me. I had to forgive, forget, let go and let God. That's a tough thing to do but it's worth it. I made many strides and changes not even knowing what I was preparing for. Just innately knowing it all had to be done.
When it was 14 months away, then it was 9 months, then it was 3 months, now it's less that 21 days. Time moves so very fast! So to answer that question "Am I ready?" I simply pose another question. "Are you ready for a Miracle?" My answer to both is a resounding YES!
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| I've been ready for quite some time... |
