Back To The Future...

Do Over…

"Now where is that flux capacitor...”

I think I'll use a lifeline

Maybe I'll phone a friend

There are things I need to undo

Somebody please give me a mulligan

Should've use that free spin

Or maybe a bonus stack

Should've cashed in my chips sooner

Before betting it all on black

I think I picked the wrong horse

I was one number off the mark

Should've trusted my gut instincts

Instead of following my heart

Should have went left

Instead of going straight

Shouldn't have took that last gamble

And now i realize it's too late

Someone please give me a redo

There are some things I want to change

Never pictured life would be like this

It’s driving me insane…

No matter how much I hope and pray

I won't get that chance again

Guess I can stop expecting

Doc Brown to pull up in that DeLorean

Copyright ©GL21  12/31/2012 

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I can’t hold them in’

They’re bound to escape

These feelings that I have

Their power is too great

This time I knew

You would not break my heart

But strange situations arose

That drove us further and further apart

When I wanted to be with you

People seemed to interfere

That it probably why

You are not with me here

It wasn’t our fault

There were things we could not control

Like the other people who were involved

And our love they oppose

Maybe you are still upset

And probably mad

But you may never understand how it hurts

To have lost the chances I’ve had

So I play it off now

But I can only disguise

The pain that i feel

…within the sadness of my eyes.

Copyright © GL21  2011

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Rehab....

Convalescence

“I don’t need any more counseling…”

Okay, I’ll admit it

You were my drug of choice

I was so hooked on you

I damn near lost my voice

Couldn’t sleep most nights

There were times I needed you

For late night hits

Just to get through

Forget cold turkey

I thought I had an endless supply

You were a harmless addiction

One I couldn’t deny

Never thought I’d ever

Have to come down off that high

But when my source got cut off

I thought I’d surely die

At first I didn’t want you

My friends told me to stay away

But I had to try it once

I still remember that day

On a Friday morning

I decided to skip class

You came by and gave me an offer

One that I couldn’t pass

Held it in my hands

I took a whiff

 It Smelled exquisite

So I took a sip

Then that was it

Once was all it took

Too late to resist

By then I was hooked

On some freaky, Sneaky

Creepy

 Type of Ish

Had me licking, Biting, Sucking

And scratching

Begging for another hit

So yeah I can admit it

You WERE my drug of choice

But I’m fresh out of rehab

Without a shred of remorse…

Copyright© GL21 9/18/12

No Escape...

When

“We cannot escape this fate…”

It’s going to happen…

When

You see my

Face…

When

You hear my

Voice…

When

You smell my

Scent…

When

You feel my

Embrace…

When

You taste my

Kiss…

When

You receive my

Touch…

When

You unbutton my

Shirt…

&

When

You Experience my

Love

It’s a done deal…

It’s something we cannot avoid…

Copyright © GL21 5/10/2011

Knowing...

Because

“It’s the knowing that hurts the most…”

It hurts because…

I thought I’d lost the game

It hurts because…

I thought that I was to blame

It hurts because…

I know you never cared for me

It hurts because…

I know your love was never shared with me

It hurts because…

I knew it was wasn’t right from the start

It hurts because…

I knew eventually it would all fall apart

It hurts because…

I wanted it all to work, for awhile

It hurts because…

I wanted to stay in denial

It hurts because…

I was afraid to feel it

It hurts because…

I was afraid time would reveal it

It hurts because…

I feared that I would still be the same

It hurts because…

I feared I couldn’t change

It hurts because…

I’d never again see your face

And I don’t hurt anymore because…

I realized I’m in a better place

Copyright © GL21  5/21/2012 

Hello...Fear....

FEARFUL

"For the thing I greatly feared has come upon me, and what I dreaded has happened to me." -Job 3:25

My greatest concern,

Or should I say the biggest fear to me

Is that one morning You will wake up

And realize I’m not really what I appear to be

In Your mind

I’m the perfect mate

The one who can do no wrong

And the guy You believe to be so great.

It’s so very hard

To live a lie…

On the surface it seems

I’m the perfect guy…

But I know I’m not

I am reminded of my flaws daily

But You can’t see them

Love can make some visions hazy

You can’t understand

For me each day is a chore

Trying to conceal the truth

Or from it, to ignore

I hope and pray

You don’t ever see my reality

Maybe You’ll be shocked if You do

And decide to reject me.

I couldn’t accept that fate

So each day is test

For me to be what I feel I am not

And hope I don’t break down from the stress

I know one day You will wake up

While I am lying there…

And realize that I am really nothing

That is my greatest fear…

Copyright ©2009 GL21

Last Night's Stand...

Morning Beckons

“Just can’t let go…”

Morning beckons,

Covers clenched

Sweat’s still here

My sheets are drenched

Neck’s stiff

Pillow’s bit

The bottle’s empty

But I’m still lit

Finger’s swollen

Ankle’s sprained

Yesterday was fun

Gotta do that again

Throat’s dry

Shirt’s moist

My arm is numb

I’ve lost my voice…

Stomach’s aching

Back’s sore

You’re long gone

But I crave more

Damn… why can’t I leave this bed…

Copyright© GL21 4/28/12

What You Sow...

Full Circle

“When will they realize this world is round, not flat…”

Everyone told me not to fool with you
But I went against the grain
Believing all of your lies about
Never causing me pain

But you did cause me to suffer
She may have broken my heart
But you were much worse, you see
You ripped my soul apart

Spiritual wounds cut deep
But I display no outward signs
Except the sadness I experience
Every now and then when I close my eyes

Sometimes you haunt my dreams
As if you are trying to reach out to me
But as foolish as I once was towards you
I know now what you're about, you see

So I have to ignore those phantoms
They are of a season long since passed
But there's a blessing in every lesson
I learned from dealing with your trifling ass

You may not see it now
Hell you might not even care
But heed this final warning I give you
It's something I felt I should share

You get what you give
And what you do to others comes back
Karma is indeed an angry bitch
And that heifer packs mean bitchslap

So don’t think this world is flat
And what we do to others doesn't matter
Because when things come full circle
It will be time for your world to shatter.

I just hope it was all worth it…

Copyright © GL21 3/1/2012 

Saw It Coming...

Foreshadows

“Don't ignore red flags...”

I once predicted the ending

To this deplorable thing I called a life…

T’was a fairytale conclusion

Was going to grow old and feeble with my wife…

But I was wrong

Alas, poor foolish, simple old me…

For the wonderful ending I sought

Was never meant to be

I once expected the existence

Of this pitiful thing I called my family…

T’was a loving and caring group

Consisted of a man, woman and a couple of seeds

But (again) I was wrong

Alas, that poor simple foolish dream

Because the loving group I sought

Just wasn’t in the cards, it seems

I once anticipated the appearance

Of this intriguing, helpful, beautiful mate

She’s be caring, loving and faithful

And everything would always be so great

But (once again) I was wrong

Alas, that sad, ignorant bastard child

Who chased an implausible dream

That only lasted a short while…

Unfulfilled desires and what ifs…

Caused me so much pain and grief

But now I write these lines

And it is my only relief…

Copyright © GL21 4/17/2012 

Time Will Reveal....

Only Time Will Tell…

(Parts I- III)

  

Part I

Only time will tell,

If my emotional scars will heal

Only time will tell

If i will ever change the way i feel

They say that time…

Heals all wounds,

Well i hope that it hurries up

And heal mine soon.

I can’t bear the pain,

Or even the hell

And if I will ever be the same again,

Only time will tell…

Copyright © GL21 2010

Part II

Only time will tell

If you are the one for me…

Only time will tell

If we are meant to be…

Only time will tell

If you really do care…

Only time will tell

If you will always be here…

Only time will tell

How long your love for me will endure…

Only time will tell

If this time I can really be sure…

Copyright © GL21 2010

Part III

Only time will tell

What the future holds…

Only time will tell

What tragedy will unfold…

Only time will tell

What I couldn’t see for myself…

Only time will tell

Why you wanted someone else…

Only time will tell

Why I still think about you…

Only time will tell

Me the things you never would do…

Only time will tell

What really caused you to go…

Only time will tell

Whether I’ll ever truly know…

Copyright © GL21 2011