Monday, December 31, 2012

Back To The Future...

Do Over…

"Now where is that flux capacitor...”

I think I'll use a lifeline

Maybe I'll phone a friend

There are things I need to undo

Somebody please give me a mulligan

Should've use that free spin

Or maybe a bonus stack

Should've cashed in my chips sooner

Before betting it all on black

I think I picked the wrong horse

I was one number off the mark

Should've trusted my gut instincts

Instead of following my heart

Should have went left

Instead of going straight

Shouldn't have took that last gamble

And now i realize it's too late

Someone please give me a redo

There are some things I want to change

Never pictured life would be like this

It’s driving me insane…

No matter how much I hope and pray

I won't get that chance again

Guess I can stop expecting

Doc Brown to pull up in that DeLorean

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Untitled #2

UNTITLED#2

I can’t hold them in’

They’re bound to escape

These feelings that I have

Their power is too great

This time I knew

You would not break my heart

But strange situations arose

That drove us further and further apart

When I wanted to be with you

People seemed to interfere

That it probably why

You are not with me here

It wasn’t our fault

There were things we could not control

Like the other people who were involved

And our love they oppose

Maybe you are still upset

And probably mad

But you may never understand how it hurts

To have lost the chances I’ve had

So I play it off now

But I can only disguise

The pain that i feel

…within the sadness of my eyes.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

MIA

I know I've been MIA but I have been working on new material... Don't worry I'll be back soon

Thanks for reading!

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Rehab....

Convalescence

“I don’t need any more counseling…”

Okay, I’ll admit it

You were my drug of choice

I was so hooked on you

I damn near lost my voice

Couldn’t sleep most nights

There were times I needed you

For late night hits

Just to get through

Forget cold turkey

I thought I had an endless supply

You were a harmless addiction

One I couldn’t deny

Never thought I’d ever

Have to come down off that high

But when my source got cut off

I thought I’d surely die

At first I didn’t want you

My friends told me to stay away

But I had to try it once

I still remember that day

On a Friday morning

I decided to skip class

You came by and gave me an offer

One that I couldn’t pass

Held it in my hands

I took a whiff

It Smelled exquisite

So I took a sip

Then that was it

Once was all it took

Too late to resist

By then I was hooked

On some freaky, Sneaky

Creepy

Type of Ish

Had me licking, Biting, Sucking

And scratching

Begging for another hit

So yeah I can admit it

You WERE my drug of choice

But I’m fresh out of rehab

Without a shred of remorse…

Saturday, June 30, 2012

No Escape...

When

“We cannot escape this fate…”

It’s going to happen…

When

You see my

Face…

When

You hear my

Voice…

When

You smell my

Scent…

When

You feel my

Embrace…

When

You taste my

Kiss…

When

You receive my

Touch…

When

You unbutton my

Shirt…

When

You Experience my

Love

It’s a done deal…

It’s something we cannot avoid…

Knowing...

Because

“It’s the knowing that hurts the most…”

It hurts because…

I thought I’d lost the game

It hurts because…

I thought that I was to blame

It hurts because…

I know you never cared for me

It hurts because…

I know your love was never shared with me

It hurts because…

I knew it was wasn’t right from the start

It hurts because…

I knew eventually it would all fall apart

It hurts because…

I wanted it all to work, for awhile

It hurts because…

I wanted to stay in denial

It hurts because…

I was afraid to feel it

It hurts because…

I was afraid time would reveal it

It hurts because…

I feared that I would still be the same

It hurts because…

I feared I couldn’t change

It hurts because…

I’d never again see your face

And I don’t hurt anymore because…

I realized I’m in a better place

Friday, June 22, 2012

Hello...Fear....

FEARFUL

"For the thing I greatly feared has come upon me, and what I dreaded has happened to me." -Job 3:25

My greatest concern,

Or should I say the biggest fear to me

Is that one morning You will wake up

And realize I’m not really what I appear to be

In Your mind

I’m the perfect mate

The one who can do no wrong

And the guy You believe to be so great.

It’s so very hard

To live a lie…

On the surface it seems

I’m the perfect guy…

But I know I’m not

I am reminded of my flaws daily

But You can’t see them

Love can make some visions hazy

You can’t understand

For me each day is a chore

Trying to conceal the truth

Or from it, to ignore

I hope and pray

You don’t ever see my reality

Maybe You’ll be shocked if You do

And decide to reject me.

I couldn’t accept that fate

So each day is test

For me to be what I feel I am not

And hope I don’t break down from the stress

I know one day You will wake up

While I am lying there…

And realize that I am really nothing

That is my greatest fear…