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Rehab....

Convalescence

“I don’t need any more counseling…”

Okay, I’ll admit it

You were my drug of choice

I was so hooked on you

I damn near lost my voice

Couldn’t sleep most nights

There were times I needed you

For late night hits

Just to get through

Forget cold turkey

I thought I had an endless supply

You were a harmless addiction

One I couldn’t deny

Never thought I’d ever

Have to come down off that high

But when my source got cut off

I thought I’d surely die

At first I didn’t want you

My friends told me to stay away

But I had to try it once

I still remember that day

On a Friday morning

I decided to skip class

You came by and gave me an offer

One that I couldn’t pass

Held it in my hands

I took a whiff

 It Smelled exquisite

So I took a sip

Then that was it

Once was all it took

Too late to resist

By then I was hooked

On some freaky, Sneaky

Creepy

 Type of Ish

Had me licking, Biting, Sucking

And scratching

Begging for another hit

So yeah I can admit it

You WERE my drug of choice

But I’m fresh out of rehab

Without a shred of remorse…

Copyright© GL21 9/18/12

No Escape...

When

“We cannot escape this fate…”

It’s going to happen…

When

You see my

Face…

When

You hear my

Voice…

When

You smell my

Scent…

When

You feel my

Embrace…

When

You taste my

Kiss…

When

You receive my

Touch…

When

You unbutton my

Shirt…

&

When

You Experience my

Love

It’s a done deal…

It’s something we cannot avoid…

Copyright © GL21 5/10/2011

Knowing...

Because

“It’s the knowing that hurts the most…”

It hurts because…

I thought I’d lost the game

It hurts because…

I thought that I was to blame

It hurts because…

I know you never cared for me

It hurts because…

I know your love was never shared with me

It hurts because…

I knew it was wasn’t right from the start

It hurts because…

I knew eventually it would all fall apart

It hurts because…

I wanted it all to work, for awhile

It hurts because…

I wanted to stay in denial

It hurts because…

I was afraid to feel it

It hurts because…

I was afraid time would reveal it

It hurts because…

I feared that I would still be the same

It hurts because…

I feared I couldn’t change

It hurts because…

I’d never again see your face

And I don’t hurt anymore because…

I realized I’m in a better place

Copyright © GL21  5/21/2012 

Hello...Fear....

FEARFUL

"For the thing I greatly feared has come upon me, and what I dreaded has happened to me." -Job 3:25

My greatest concern,

Or should I say the biggest fear to me

Is that one morning You will wake up

And realize I’m not really what I appear to be

In Your mind

I’m the perfect mate

The one who can do no wrong

And the guy You believe to be so great.

It’s so very hard

To live a lie…

On the surface it seems

I’m the perfect guy…

But I know I’m not

I am reminded of my flaws daily

But You can’t see them

Love can make some visions hazy

You can’t understand

For me each day is a chore

Trying to conceal the truth

Or from it, to ignore

I hope and pray

You don’t ever see my reality

Maybe You’ll be shocked if You do

And decide to reject me.

I couldn’t accept that fate

So each day is test

For me to be what I feel I am not

And hope I don’t break down from the stress

I know one day You will wake up

While I am lying there…

And realize that I am really nothing

That is my greatest fear…

Copyright ©2009 GL21

Last Night's Stand...

Morning Beckons

“Just can’t let go…”

Morning beckons,

Covers clenched

Sweat’s still here

My sheets are drenched

Neck’s stiff

Pillow’s bit

The bottle’s empty

But I’m still lit

Finger’s swollen

Ankle’s sprained

Yesterday was fun

Gotta do that again

Throat’s dry

Shirt’s moist

My arm is numb

I’ve lost my voice…

Stomach’s aching

Back’s sore

You’re long gone

But I crave more

Damn… why can’t I leave this bed…

Copyright© GL21 4/28/12

What You Sow...

Full Circle

“When will they realize this world is round, not flat…”

Everyone told me not to fool with you
But I went against the grain
Believing all of your lies about
Never causing me pain

But you did cause me to suffer
She may have broken my heart
But you were much worse, you see
You ripped my soul apart

Spiritual wounds cut deep
But I display no outward signs
Except the sadness I experience
Every now and then when I close my eyes

Sometimes you haunt my dreams
As if you are trying to reach out to me
But as foolish as I once was towards you
I know now what you're about, you see

So I have to ignore those phantoms
They are of a season long since passed
But there's a blessing in every lesson
I learned from dealing with your trifling ass

You may not see it now
Hell you might not even care
But heed this final warning I give you
It's something I felt I should share

You get what you give
And what you do to others comes back
Karma is indeed an angry bitch
And that heifer packs mean bitchslap

So don’t think this world is flat
And what we do to others doesn't matter
Because when things come full circle
It will be time for your world to shatter.

I just hope it was all worth it…

Copyright © GL21 3/1/2012