The Maniacal Ravings of a Desperate Man...

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Eventually...

“What’s meant to be, will be…eventually”

It’s already over…

Our eyes…

Lock

Our hands…

Clasp

Our lips…

Touch

Our tongues…

Mesh

Our bodies…

Unite

Our minds…

Link

Our hearts…

Bond

Our souls…

Connect

Just wait & see…

It’s going to happen…Eventually.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

In Flux...

Limbo

“Sometimes we really can’t see the forest for the trees…”

Why am I drawn to you?

I shouldn’t be feeling you this way

We were only just friends…

At least that’s what we always say

Why can’t I forget you?

This attraction shouldn’t be

We were only just buddies…

But between us there’s chemistry

Why do I think about you?

In ways I know aren’t right…

We were only close comrades

You aren’t even my type…

Why do I wait for you?

When I know you won’t be there

We were only supposed to be pals….

But for some reason I’m still here

I care a great deal for you…

So much more than you’ll ever know

But I’ll never get a chance to show it

Because we’re stuck in Limbo

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Lamentations...

Lamented

“I bet it seemed so right back then…”

Mistakes were made

Yet apologies weren’t told

Deeds were done

Now it just feels old

Seems like eons ago

It all went down so fast

I’ve moved on

Yet you’re stuck in the past

I can understand your grief

But you created your own reality

Now lie in that bed

You made by wronging me

If only you had the gumption

To do it right from the start

Then you wouldn’t be in this situation

Cursed with a heavy heart

Trapped in a boundless hell

Caused by your own pride

Your outward visage is a lie

Concealing your sadness inside

Now you ask yourself the question

Was it really worth it?

Maybe you should have thought it through

Then you wouldn’t be feeling like this...

I gave you an easy way out

Yet even then you still lied..

Maybe this is how it’s meant to play out

Oh well at least I tried…

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Question And Answer

Because "&" was such a fan favorite. I decided to write "?" (Question) and "!" (Answer) as sort of a before and after. Enjoy...

I look at You…

But You don’t look at me

I ask myself the question….

Am I missing out on my Destiny?

I talk with You…

But You aren’t feeling me

I ask myself the question….

Am I missing a perfect Opportunity?

I reach for You….

But You don’t respond to me

I ask myself the question…

Am I being too Pushy?

I feel pain from You…

But You deny help from me

I ask myself the question…

Am I able to leave You Be?

I reach for You (again)…

And now You take my hand

So I ask You the question…

Could You see me being Your Man?

I talk to You (again)…

And now You communicate

So I ask You the question…

Could You believe in Fate?

I look at You (again)…

And now You stare at me

So I ask myself a final question….

Could You love what You See?

We touch,

&…

Something comes over me

I feel this incredible sensation

For You,

it’s a short burst of energy

We embrace,

&…

My mind starts to race

I don’t ever want to let You go

For You,

it’s only the right time & place

We kiss,

&…

It sets my soul on fire

I want You to be mine forever

For You,

it’s only a momentary desire

We lay,

&…

I cannot believe it’s true

It’s everything I’d hoped for

For You,

it’s just something to do

We kiss, (again)

&…

Now it doesn’t feel the same way

I want to talk about it but….

For You,

there’s nothing to say

We embrace, (again)

&…

My heart beats fast

I know that our time is short

For You,

it wasn’t meant to last

We leave,

&...

I tearfully say my goodbye

I can’t wait to see You again but

For You,

it’s all been a lie…

For You,

I gave my all

&…

For You,

I gave my trust

&…

For You,

I gave my heart

&…

In return,

You gave me lust…

I think to myself…

“It’s happening again!”

But some things you can’t prevent, &

The Truth is causing the pain…

I say to You…

“What is this thing exactly?

I’m really crazy about You!”

But Your Truth is You don’t want me…

I think to myself…

“It’s all been a lie!”

But the smoking gun is there, &

The Truth is hard to deny…

I say to You

“What exactly do you want?

I’m really feeling You!”

But Your Truth is that You don’t…

I think to myself…

“It’s not my fault this time!”

But the deed has been done, &

The Truth is no longer sublime…

I say to You…

“What can I do to win Your heart?

I’m really serious about You!”

But Your Truth is that we’ve grown apart…

I think to myself…

“It’s going to be over soon!”

But You won’t say anything, &

The Truth has left the room…

Friday, October 28, 2011

Samson's Complex

I've heard tales of the "Samson Complex"...One being that Samson was attracted to that which was meant to destroy him. Got inspired so here it goes...

The Complex…

“Making the mistake I never learned from…”

We always want
What, for us isn’t right
The complex is in full effect….
Seems I always fall for the wrong type…

You had me at hello…
It’s already too late
I’m yours now…
Can this really be my Fate?

What is this strange power you wield?
You have me under your spell
Try as I might to escape
I end up succumbing to your will

Could it be those eyes?

Or possibly it's those lips

Maybe it’s that hair?

Or most definitely those hips

I bet it's your skin

It's such a beautiful hue

It could be your voice

Or is it all of you?

It doesn’t matter what it is...
Cause by the end of the day
The complex has me wrapped up
And I’ll let you have your way….

Sunday, October 23, 2011

R.I.P. S.J.F.

Ahh...nostalgia. I wrote this one in 1996-97. Seems like so long ago. Enjoy...

The Eulogy (R.I.P.)

… who said love never dies…

Here She Lies…

My Former Girlfriend.

Who Would Have Ever Thought,

This Is How It Would End.

I Remember How It Used To Be…

Before She Went Away.

I Loved Her More Than Anything…

Even More Than Words Could Say.

No One Lives Forever…

So I Am Not Sad That She Departed,

But It Is The Way That She Left

Which Gives Me Such Pain And Heartache.

She Wasn’t The Victim Of An Accident

Nor Did She Die From A Gunshot…

So A Clear Reason For Her Death

Is Something I Haven’t Got.

I Believe It Was Another Man,

Who Caused Her Untimely Demise.

This Murderer Wanted Her All To Himself,

And His Identity Was No Surprise.

He Was A Crafty, Scary, And

Sneaky Little Guy…

Who Took My Lover From Me,

And Made Her Love For Me Die.

This Wasn’t A Spur Of The Moment Abduction,

It Was Over A Year In The Making.

He Just Waited And Waited For A Time

When She Would Be Ripe For The Taking.

He Used Treachery And Lies

To Pretend That He Was Her Friend,

Then He Used His Evil Influence…

To Cause Our Relationship To End.

Only I Could See Thru His Plot,

I Could Tell By His Eyes…

But I Could Never Truly Convince Her,

And He Took Her As His Prize.

After He Took Her Away….

And No Matter How Hard I Tried….

I Never Did See Her Again

…Until The Day She Finally Died.

Stranger than fiction...

The Truth…

Life

Sometimes

Seems…

Have

Trouble…

Seeing

The

Truth…

Recognizing

The

Truth…

Uncovering

The

Truth…

Understanding

The

Truth…

Believing

The

Truth…

Telling

The

Truth…

Remembering

The

Truth

Reading

The

Truth…

Hearing

The

Truth…

But

The

Hardest

Thing

All

Is…

ACCEPTING

The

Truth